An Uphill Journey

The business of all things Internet is a tough one.

When you first come across the prospect of making a living on line, it seems the ideal, the dream you had always dreamed, a solution to all of your work problems.

Stay at home, avoid the mad dash to work every morning, rush hour a thing of the murky past.

Well in an ideal world all of those things are true, but as you have probably realized by now this is far from being an ideal world.

The first three months of setting up a business on line is sheer hard work with twelve hour days at least.  Motivation to keep going is the hardest and most elusive ingredient.

In my case for most of the time I have been totally alone.  If I need to see other people I have to go and seek them out – why? – because they are all busy working and have little time to spare because of the dashing about they have to do.

Yes the most difficult part for me has been confronting the loneliness whilst holding onto my sanity and of course sense of direction.

Today particularly was a tough start, I heard myself saying in my head “drag yourself back onto the horse”.  Not a good positive affirmation I know, but it is the way I feel at this time.  It really does feel like an uphill journey.

I have a good deal of understanding of how the mind works, however this does not always benefit my thinking.  Holding onto realization as to why I am experiencing lack of enthusiasm and keeping sight of the answer can be challenging.

It is in my nature to work hard, that is not an issue, what is a problem is the slow results we get when we put hours and hours of work into our blogging.  Trying to get yourself noticed is the hardest part and what has just hit me whilst writing this is; I experienced the same issue as a child.  The family were so busy with themselves that you became almost invisible.

Is this why I have put myself up for this mighty challenge of working on line?  Have I yet again put huge obstacles in my way to make my life difficult?  Big questions with little or no sight of answers.

Yes I will continue to work hard and endeavor to have my work noticed, I am certainly not a quitter and if anything I learned from childhood it was no-one else is going to put things on a plate for you, everything has to be earned.

So I will dig deep into my subconscious mind, clear out yet more outdated messages and put in some positive new ones and see what happens.

In this world today we can click a few keys and be lucky enough to find instant inspiration:

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Two Wrongs do not make a Right!

Yesterday I received an angry email from someone because I had copied a tiny part of her work. Naughty, yes I agree, hanging offense? Not really, I was simply being lazy.

Although I have studied in-depth the human mind and its foibles since the year 2000, my confidence can sometimes dip and at times I believe someone is more informed than I am, this is why I copied someone else, I thought they were better informed than me. I was wrong.

Two wrongs in one day.

Thank goodness, I am still human!

I am passionate about learning, particularly when it involves myself, in fact it has to involve me otherwise that knowledge is not relayed to the person I am assisting with change.

The email was more about the writer, when someone is angry it is always about issues buried within them, understanding and taking this stance makes it easier to deal with their anger.

It is important to realize in any transaction between two people is the vibrations you are putting out into the world. It is my belief that what you think and say manifests itself into your everyday life.

I apologized and truly, I have learned from my mistake. I have learned that I am far more capable than I am able to admit, I am far more qualified to speak of personal development and self-help than most due to the vast amount of time, effort and money I have invested in the subject.

Upon reflection, there was a good deal of learning from this incident, mainly be careful what you write, particularly when you are angry.

Apparently the rule of thumb before writing such an email is:

a) Write the email

b) Leave it for 24 hours

c) Return to the email and re-write from a calmer perspective.

Anger expressed via the written word can be cathartic and the subconscious mind finds time to dig deep into its vaults and bring rational behavior to the forefront.

Damage can go deep from this type of interaction and so it pays to give attention to minor details and learn what your input has been in constructing the conflict.

I have been working on the internet for three short months and suffered plagiarism many times already; I understand this is out of my control. I have taken the stance that it is flattering, but more importantly I monitor my thoughts and ensure that I feel no anger or revenge on the perpetrators. I wish them well and send them love.

If I was to show anger and revenge as per the angry email, then I could only expect that sort of reaction back from the universe. It really is that simple.

When I experience this sort of exchange, the result is it makes me strive harder to shine at what I do.

So why do I choose to take a compassionate stance when someone is stealing my work?

Simply because what you put out into the universe pings straight back at you, that is what I am teaching and in order to be true to people I am helping I have to live by the words I speak.

Believe in yourself, trust in your intuition, do not worry about plagiarism, it is unavoidable, but the main piece of advice I would proffer is to be careful what you say. Your life is the way it is because of your thoughts and thankfully, outdated patterns can be altered.

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